Parents and Sex
About a year and a half ago, I heard my parents having sex. I told my mum the next morning and she explained that her and my step-dad love each other very much and that's how they express their love. I understand that and I don't like them just waving it off. They think that's the only time I ever heard them, but I have heard them countless times since. Every night I find it hard to get to sleep because I'm scared I'll hear them, and it happens often. I try to alert them to the fact that I'm awake by going to the toilet but as it has happened more, my mum has insisted I go to the toilet before I go to bed so I don't get up to go in the night. I think she just wants me asleep so they can have sex. Once they had sex at four o'clock in the morning so I definitely wouldn't be awake and I like that idea, but my mum orgasmed so loudly that she woke me up. Sex is a taboo subject in our house and I can't talk to her. I want to talk to her about it but she'll probably say about her and my step-dad loving each other very much etc etc. Also whenever I mention something to do with sex she acts as if it's wrong to talk about it. I'm really worried and I think when I'm older I'll be traumatised by it. I think when I have a husband and kids I won't have sex unless we're alone in the house. I know sex is a major part of a relationship so I'm worried I might end up divorced like my parents, and I really don't want to. What should I do?
— BelleDeJour
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